Things To Think About

[dual_wield_hax]

Community settle something for me.

A mid-range lv 20 guild has asked me to join up with them, but I really don't want to let them know that I'm higher level. Should I? I mean, it's a guild of all real life friends. I feel like I'd be getting in the way...

[Guess who totally doesn't remember what he said during the virus?]

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[dual_wield_hax]

Huh...

That's kind of depressing. Just one thing huh?

[tenminutes]

I don't think of it as depressing. I'll miss all of you, but I should've disappeared already. I'm just trying to hold on and make sure I don't get too satisfied.

[dual_wield_hax]

What happens if you get satisfied? Something will happen?

[tenminutes]

Kirito, the afterlife I'm from is a specific afterlife for people who led really, really bad lives and then died young on top of that. When we become satisfied or accept your life or just plain find peace, then we disappear and our souls are reincarnated into someone else. I've come to terms with what happened already. The only thing that's keeping me from disappearing now is a promise I made with someone.

[dual_wield_hax]

... Gah. And the promise you made keeps you from fading. I can't imagine that being reborn as someone else would give you any satisfaction.

[tenminutes]

If I can't do that one thing, I don't think I'm going to be able to. There's still a chance I'm going to get stuck again.

[dual_wield_hax]

Stuck in the afterlife, or stuck where you are?

[tenminutes]

Stuck just existing. It doesn't matter where. I don't want to die or disappear, but it's something that I have to do. My time's been up for a while and even if I can keep that promise, there's no happy ending after that if I stay. If I can't fulfill it, I don't think I'm going to be able to forgive myself again.

[dual_wield_hax]

Just existing. It sounds hard to do, striking a balance between what you all have to do. But good luck on it. It sounds like it works.

[tenminutes]

Mhm. So don't get too attached, got it?

[dual_wield_hax]

Fine fine, if you say so. [He so totally is going to worry about her. No doubt about that.]

[tenminutes]

[ At least she didn't wait until it was going to happen to tell him. ]

Until then, I'm going to see what I can do to help.

[dual_wield_hax]

Thanks. I'm sure Suguha feels the same.

[tenminutes]

What was your life like before you got stuck?

[ She doesn't feel bad asking since she doesn't think he's going to be someone who has serious problems he can't talk about. ]

[dual_wield_hax]

An endless cycle of video games, kendo practice and school. I kind of do so-so in school. Video games, MMOs in particular were my kind of thing.

[tenminutes]

Pretty mundane then? I remember that. I didn't really play games though.

[dual_wield_hax]

Pretty mundane. I did average in school, but I hacked records a few years to check something.

[tenminutes]

You hacked records? What are you, some kind of spy?

[dual_wield_hax]

I wanted to know who my real mom was.

[tenminutes]

[ Oh. Yuri doesn't say anything for a few seconds. ]

That's a good reason.

[dual_wield_hax]

Yeah, that's pretty much how it went. I was raised by my uncle and aunt, and Suguha's my cousin, but we're trying to remain as a regular family.

[tenminutes]

Do you care about them like they're your real family?

[dual_wield_hax]

I do. I'm just terrible at expressing it.

[tenminutes]

If you care about them that way, then they are that way. That's all.

[dual_wield_hax]

Yeah that's true. Thanks.