Things To Think About

[dual_wield_hax]

Community settle something for me.

A mid-range lv 20 guild has asked me to join up with them, but I really don't want to let them know that I'm higher level. Should I? I mean, it's a guild of all real life friends. I feel like I'd be getting in the way...

[Guess who totally doesn't remember what he said during the virus?]

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[tenminutes]

We've got aliens and people from the future on the community. They can use me to test anything before they accidentally kill off a bunch of people trying something.

[dual_wield_hax]

You're pretty fearless to do something like that for me and the people trapped here.

[tenminutes]

I'm already dead. I've been offed multiple times after I got killed the first time, ranging from a katana through my heart to cracking my head open on the ground or getting experimented on with magic in exchange for a worldhop back before I had one... and worse before you guys knew me and I was even more reckless. Getting my brain fried a few times won't be a problem as long as I've got someone who's willing to do it so I can get out when I need to.

[dual_wield_hax]

... heh. You really earned your reputation then. I'm rather envious because when I first saw a guy die in front of me, I blamed myself for a while.

[tenminutes]

[ >The idea of Yuri not blaming herself.
> AHAHAHAHA yeah right ]

Trust me, there's not a whole lot to be envious of.

[dual_wield_hax]

[Kirito is bad at judging that.]

Mmm, well, yeah I'll have to deal with that when it comes along.

[tenminutes]

I mean it. We only met recently so I guess you don't really know too much about me, but the whole reason I'm still around now is because I blamed myself for someone's death.

[dual_wield_hax]

That's true. We've got a lot to learn about one another anyhow.

[tenminutes]

Not a lot of time, either. I should probably warn you that I won't be around very long so don't get attached.

[dual_wield_hax]

Are... you going to fade away or something?

[tenminutes]

It's not going to be some kind of slow process where we get to say tearful goodbyes or anything. I'll just disappear in the blink of an eye. I already should have, there's just one thing that I'm hanging onto to keep me here. Once I finish that, I'm letting go.

[dual_wield_hax]

Huh...

That's kind of depressing. Just one thing huh?

[tenminutes]

I don't think of it as depressing. I'll miss all of you, but I should've disappeared already. I'm just trying to hold on and make sure I don't get too satisfied.

[dual_wield_hax]

What happens if you get satisfied? Something will happen?

[tenminutes]

Kirito, the afterlife I'm from is a specific afterlife for people who led really, really bad lives and then died young on top of that. When we become satisfied or accept your life or just plain find peace, then we disappear and our souls are reincarnated into someone else. I've come to terms with what happened already. The only thing that's keeping me from disappearing now is a promise I made with someone.

[dual_wield_hax]

... Gah. And the promise you made keeps you from fading. I can't imagine that being reborn as someone else would give you any satisfaction.

[tenminutes]

If I can't do that one thing, I don't think I'm going to be able to. There's still a chance I'm going to get stuck again.

[dual_wield_hax]

Stuck in the afterlife, or stuck where you are?

[tenminutes]

Stuck just existing. It doesn't matter where. I don't want to die or disappear, but it's something that I have to do. My time's been up for a while and even if I can keep that promise, there's no happy ending after that if I stay. If I can't fulfill it, I don't think I'm going to be able to forgive myself again.

[dual_wield_hax]

Just existing. It sounds hard to do, striking a balance between what you all have to do. But good luck on it. It sounds like it works.

[tenminutes]

Mhm. So don't get too attached, got it?

[dual_wield_hax]

Fine fine, if you say so. [He so totally is going to worry about her. No doubt about that.]

[tenminutes]

[ At least she didn't wait until it was going to happen to tell him. ]

Until then, I'm going to see what I can do to help.

[dual_wield_hax]

Thanks. I'm sure Suguha feels the same.

[tenminutes]

What was your life like before you got stuck?

[ She doesn't feel bad asking since she doesn't think he's going to be someone who has serious problems he can't talk about. ]